A few years ago a crisis of life and faith started in my life. Typically you would think of a crisis as something that happens quickly but not in this case. I was the Pastor at DeLong Community Church formerly Tacoma First Free Methodist church. I was under a great deal of pressure to "grow" the church. This specifically meant more people attending the church.
I found that in ministry I was gifted at caring for people. I was good at helping people mature in their personal walk with God. However, I was not gifted at all in bringing lots of people into a church quickly. Our church did grow but it wasn't enough growth and it wasn't quick enough so when I went to my supervisors to ask for help (to do something I didn't completely buy into) I was told that they were going to close our church and they didn't have a position for me anywhere else. This hurt at the time but has turned out to be a blessing for my family and I. Since numeric growth is the main measuring stick of success in pastoral ministry I am very relieved to be out of pastoral ministry.
I don't think I am done serving God or serving people but being a pastor is a terrible job.